At the risk of sounding like Taylor Swift, I'm size 11 while she's a size 4. I'm an emotional wreck while she's put together. How can I not be jealous when you choose to spend the day with her? Not to mention her being an old crush that you gushed and gushed about to me. Yeah, it hurts. My insecurities aren't your problem but you can't blame me for letting them get a hold of me when she's everything I'm not..... Okay, that was a little over dramatic..... Even for me. But really, it's how I feel. It just sounds so much more stupid when I write it out..... Damn. Now this entire thing sounds stupid as I read it..... Disregard.