So here I am visiting my sister at her college and so far I have decided 2 things. 1) I don't think Sorority life is for me. and 2) Maybe college is not for me..... But I need it. Even being in the student center freaks me out. I feel at home in about 1 square inch of this place and it's in a Starbucks. Granted, I am only a junior in High School and I have time to grow up and figure things out, but in a year I will be making one of the biggest decisions of my life. Where to go to college. And in a year and a half I will be on my own. Possibly a few states over. And I hate to admit that i'm absolutely terrified. I'm not as independent as I seem, meeting new people scares me to death, and it has taken my this long just to get a semi solid group of friends. Most of whom would not stick around me in tough times. This, right now, seems like a haunted house. One that actually scares me. One that isn't just around at Halloween. If I truly considered myself religious I would pray right now..... In fact I still might just to talk to someone. To pretend someone is listening. To pretend someone really understands how i'm feeling even though I don't. College..... Scares the Hell out of me.