Why is it that i'm better at lying than telling the truth? I pride myself in being fairly truthful. If anyone asks me a direct question I will answer truthfully. I guess that's my way of hiding the complete truth. I will tell them what they asked for and nothing more. But still I find myself lying about trivial things sometimes. The worst part is most of the times it's not to the people around me, but myself that I am lying. I hate doing it and I know that it is a bad habit but sometimes I can't help it. I use it as a defense mechanism. I can't tell if I've become a better or worse person because of it. I may not ever know.
(First off, no this isn't about my wonderful boyfriend) Seriously? Okay so you haven't talked to me in months and now you suddenly decide to talk to me. I'm fine with that. But then you start asking for pics of me and send me one of you when I never asked for it? That's not okay. And then I see that you still have a girlfriend. HELL NO! What exactly do you take me for? Man up and be straight with your girl and tell her you don't want to be together if you want. But do NOT drag me into this. That is fair for no one and ProTip: I hate cheaters. So if you want to get with me 1) Make sure I'm not taken first and 2) Be a man. If you still are with a girl, break up with her first before chasing another one.
I have this feeling i'm not quite sure what it is but I like it :) I just feel like smiling all the time! It may just be the Prozac, but i think it's something real. It's like things are finally clicking into place. I no longer look forward to getting out of class to get to go home sooner, I look forward to getting out of class so i can see my wonderful boyfriend :) I can say anything around him without a filter and he just listens and doesn't judge me for the shit that comes out of my mouth. I am finally getting recognized for all the hard work I do in my life. I have a new thirst for knowledge. I just finished a book for FUN for the first time in about 3 years (I hadn't been able to before because of complications with Insomnia and OCD). And i'm just in a happy place. Hopefully this isn't the calm before the storm, but even if it is i'm okay with that . After all, I love the rain :)
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